Gull

GULL

 

 

I could be you, I say

to the gull four feet away on the sand, on the crushed shells, the body-houses, broken,

and the foam licking, sighing…

 

The ocean grinds its innards, which spread

beneath the fans of the gull’s two feet, beneath the flat of my palm,

and the sky spreads itself above us,

without distinguishing.

 

The gull,

facing into the wind, cleaves it,

pivots on her fine legs like a weathervane while she

tucks and retucks her beak beneath her wing.

And I long to touch her as the wind does, lifting

the feathers on the back of her neck, separately, like papers

blown out to sea.

Her eye a wet stone,

her eye a deep opening,

and the sky a single slab above us.

 

I could have entered as you entered, splitting the spray.

There.  Just a few feet away, neck twisting, eyeing it all

from the ledge of my back.

And now preening, releasing

a bit of down, which glides across the sand and

catches on the pushed-up trail of debris,

the wandering line between

the swept-clear and the reclaimed, death

on neither and both sides, the feather snagging, the wind cupping and

dropping it, putting it

between my two fingers.

 

My hand lifts, touches to my lips

the cloud-white debris

 

and it is, for a vanishing moment, warm,

releasing its heat like the earth into space,

like the stars, their light steadily

breaking against a great

dark shore.